Inner War

-Tamal Ghosal

 

Left and right, high and low, I looked and found I’m tied,

Tried my best to free myself, eventually I sighed.

Adjusted to the situation I am in, realized there’s no escape –

To toughen myself, I said I’m happy,  actually I lied.

 

I looked around & found I’m lost, didn't know to turn left or right,

Trapped in a quagmire, darkness all around, not a ray of hopeful light.

I fight to keep myself from drowning, I feel I’m trapped in a maze,

Inward I struggle to keep sanity, outward it seems I fight.

 

Faking laughter & hiding sorrow, tears have eventually dried,

I kept on failing to mask my pain, yet more and more I tried.

Displaying strength, glee and mirth, I kept on working hard –

How much ever glory attained I might, satisfaction was denied.

 

Although there’s occasional sunshine, I know it’s not an endless night,

Yet sobs and gloom predominates all else, mainly for show - is delight.

Such inner war, I face per diem, yet fight and win I must –

No time to lose in such trifles, as weed out wrong from right.